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Creating For Me (small YouTuber)

In February, I started up this YouTube channel, and although my videos haven’t been exactly regular, I’ve still done 34 videos. 34! And for that, I have 40 subscribers. Don’t get me wrong, I’m incredibly thankful for every single person that’s subscribed, but to be honest, when I started I expected more. Here’s what I’m realising, though; this channel isn’t about getting the most subscribers. It’s about me, wanting to create. 

There are two different types of video that I make, mostly. One is a casual, sit-down vlog, and the other is a more “arty” interpretation of something, generally a mish mash of different clips with a nice song over the top. I love making both, of course I do. If I didn’t I wouldn’t be doing it! But I feel like to be a youtuber, I should make more vlogs, and those are the ones that I’m more likely to be unhappy with, for the sake of getting views. Take me Christmas haul video, for example; I should have done something a bit more creative, but instead I sat down and filmed a generic haul, and uploaded something I wasn’t completely happy with. It’s not that I didn’t try, I just didn’t spend time making some sort of a plan. 

What I want to do with my channel from now is start creating for me, and stop creating for the public. This doesn’t mean no vlogs, and this doesn’t mean I don’t want to make videos about things that are more likely to get me views. What it does mean, though, is that I need to focus more on making things that I’m genuinely proud of putting out into the world. Maybe that’s putting a twist on something generic, maybe that’s filming and re-filming until I’m happy, or planning a video more than usual. It isn’t about getting it out at the same time as everyone else so that I’m part of the trend. It’s about creating for me!

In saying this, I also want more subscribers, I’m not going to pretend I don’t. So, yes, I do have a video about Moana going up soon. People like Moana, it’s something that might attract people! But I’ve done it in a way that’s more exciting than me just sitting and talking, and I’m not going to upload it until I’m completely happy with it. I’m writing this so I hold myself up to my promise, instead of thinking it once and then carrying on with what I was doing before. I want my channel to be good, dammit, and good in a way that I’m proud of, not other people. 

This really all goes for blogging as well, but for some reason I feel like I’m more true to what I want to say on here. I think putting my face on the internet makes it more real?



I was a book blogger for a while, and I now blog about every little thing in life I can think of. Bear with me while I try all these new posts out... I'm a New Zealand teen who gets angry about the world (but not angry enough for tumblr). I like to capture the world through photos and words, and read in all the moments in nz-squadbetween. I have an overwhelming desire to see every corner of the world I possibly can, and hug the people I love in all those corners. I can't do make up to save myself, and you're more likely to find me buying matching stationary than matching clothes. My nerd hobbies include a new found love of the Avengers, reading YA, watching Game of Thrones, How I Met Your Mother, and every vlogger I can find, and being the last person on the music bandwagons. I have big plans for the rest of my life, including university, teaching, travelling, and having an army of puppies. I plan to blog every second of it!

19 thoughts on “Creating For Me (small YouTuber)

  1. This sounds like such a great project! Every once in awhile I ponder making a Youtube channel. Then I realize 1) I don’t even watch Youtube and 2) I’d be further dividing my attention when mostly I want to focus on writing content for my blog. But I love that you went for it and then you’re making videos that make you happy!

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  2. If you’re interested in vlogging but don’t want to just do the same vlogs everyone else does, I would suggest vlogging days out which you’re looking forward to? I used to have a Youtube channel, and although most of my videos are private now (#embarrasment) I’ve kept up a couple of badly edited vlogs from when I went to Rome and Paris, because they’re places I won’t be going to all the time 🙂

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  3. I have tried to Vlog, but every time I try I seem to get a terrible editing type program. So I just end up giving up in the end. I had one where I uploaded the whole video and the sound on my computer would disappear, the whole computer. That kept happening over and over again.

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    1. Trying to find a good editing programme was one of the hardest things for me! I found something eventually, but it was on sale really cheap, at full price it’s way too expensive. My subscription runs out in February I think, so I’m going to have to go through all of that again!

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  4. I have always loved the idea of vlogging, but I do not have the courage. So first of all, go you for being able to put yourself forward in so many ways 🙂 I have learned that even though we often feel obligated to put out content others want, when we let go of that and do what we love, it shows. And that will attract even more viewers in the long run because enjoying what you do can really resonate with others. I think you are going to do very well 🙂

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  5. The “not angry enough for tumblr” in your description made me laugh. 😀 I understand what you’re saying about followers and content on youtube. I started a youtube channel myself a while ago, but then I had to put it on ice, because life and university got too busy. It can be difficult to find out what videos you actually want to do, but I’m sure you’ll manage to find that balance between making content that appeals to the people you want to attract and being happy what you create over time. 🙂

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    1. It’s true, tumblr people are so aggressive!
      I completely understand that, something like youtube takes up so much time compared to blogging (not that blogging doesn’t keep me busy too!). Yeah, I think I’ll get there, it’ll be interesting to see how I’m doing in a few months 🙂


  6. Hi there, just came across your post and can I say I so get you. Its so much fun making videos and I just love creating stuff as well. I had a quick scroll through your channel its really good, I love how geniune you are, keep it up.

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