Here’s the problem; I find myself stressed out a lot. Like, probably more than a healthy amount. And I write to-do lists, and organise my time better, and listen to calming music, and all that stuff you’re meant to do. The problem? Well, it doesn’t particularly work…
I think I’ve cracked the case, though; I care way too much.
I think I care just the right amount about myself, so that’s great. It’s when other people become involved that it gets too much. Let’s take my friends, for example. Good, intelligent people. Lazy, though. Lazy to a fault. I’m talking “oh wait, it’s due on Wednesday? I thought it was Friday!” and frantically starting the weekend before. They get it done, and they (mostly) get good grades. But while I’m trying to get my own assessment done, I’m also that friend that reads through what everyone else has written to try and help them improve their grades. Then my own work starts getting on top of me, and I end up way more stressed about this one little assessment than I really needed to be in the first place.
The reason I’m realising this is because it’s time to start studying for mock exams. Not real exams, luckily, but we still need to get some study done. Here’s what my day looked like on Saturday;
- Wake up, laze around, do nothing productive
- Do some classics revision (the subject I’m struggling with the most)
- Send classics summary booklet to friend, who hasn’t done it himself
- Lunch break!
- Help younger brother with maths
- Argue with younger brother about maths
- Do a little bit more classics revision
- Send updated notes to friend
- Help younger brother do health revision
- Reading and blogging break (which is right now!)
Do you see my struggle? But I don’t know how to say no to these people when they ask for help. Then my study is suffering because I spend too much time helping all these other people. And I get STRESSED when I should just be SAYING NO.
Hopefully I’ll get better at this soon. There’s only so much I can help my brother with, since I haven’t taken all of the subjects he’s taking. I’ll still try, though, because I can’t say no when someone needs me for something, no matter how much it’s damaging me. Sigh sigh sigh