Get Me Out of High School

So many people I’ve talked to complain about university, and wish they had the easy workload they had at high school. With school just going back for most of the world (not us Southern Hemisphere folk), I’m seeing posts all over the place about the big, scary university (or college) world. I’ll be one of you in March, and am I scared? The opposite, actually! I did a video on this a little while ago, but I feel like this post is going to help me get my words out better. 

Right now, I’m hating high school. I’ve always loved to learn, and even stressing about school work isn’t too terrible when I know it’s all going to pass. Now, though, my work means nothing. As long as I pass (which I know I will), I’m sweet. I don’t need good grades, which is the hard bit. I’m sitting around trying to get all my work done, stressed to tears, and it means nothing. It’s so hard to keep motivating myself to even complete the assessment when I know it ultimately doesn’t matter. Exams are in a couple of weeks, and I have no idea how I’m going to manage even picking up my notes… I want to get out, so so badly. I’ll miss it and all that, but that doesn’t mean I want to be here right now. 

This is me very soon

 

University is when you really grow up, and that’s what I’m really ready for. Well,it happens after uni a lot more, but that’s the first big step. I’ll be living out of home for the first time ever – no one to do my washing, no one to cook every meal for me, no one to bring me things when I’m sick. Nope, this is all up to me now. For some weird reason, though, that thought doesn’t scare me as much as it should. I can cook, definitely well enough for a hall that’s semi-catered. I can clean, and do all those household chores so many people have no idea about. Talking to new people is scary, but it’s incredibly exciting to know I’ll be talking to people I haven’t spent the last five years with. I might miss the comfort, but I’ll be making all my own choices, and I love the thought of that! I love my family, of course I do, but that doesn’t mean there aren’t times I want to get out. Knowing it’s so close is making me go a little insane… 

I’ve only been drunk once in my life, and even then I was only a little bit tipsy. I don’t get invited to parties, but when I’m in a hall, there’s bound to be someone who wants me to go with them. There are more people who might want to date me – girls as well as boys, which is a whole new thing for me! I’m learning how to drive now, and as much as I hate it now, it’s something I might become more comfortable with. I’ve never decorated a thing in my life, but my flat, and to an extent my dorm room, are going to need a lot of love. I need to buy furniture, and tools, and things to go in my kitchen. Things I’ve never even had to think of buying for myself before. It’s these new things that you just can’t or don’t do at home that I’m so ready for! 

I have around 5 weeks to go of school, and exams on top of that. That’s it. After that, I’m done. My last exam in 1st of December, and holy hell am I counting down the days!