Here’s the thing about doing what you love; someone is always going to want to stop you. The trick is to ignore them all, but that’s so much easier said than done.
For me, the latest thing I want to get into is photography. I’m never going to be a huge professional or anything like that, it’s more just me wanting to document my life. The photo might be terrible quality, it might never go up on any site, but I can look back on it and remember the great things I’ve done. Or, hey, I might want some nicer looking photos! I could use a proper camera, edit it, upload it, have pretty things to put wherever I want. The world is a pretty place, I’d love to learn the skills to appreciate that.
Here, we have two problems. The first, the people around me. There’s an idea that people who Snapchat, or just in general take photos on their phone, are white girls who go to Starbucks and take selfies all day long. I’m not that girl! As soon as I bring out my phone, though, I become that girl. I mean, so what? When I went out to a cute Italian place with my friends, I took a photo of what I was about to eat. And so much judgement came from my friends. I became the worst kind of person, taking photos of what I hate. It wasn’t for anyone though – it was for me, so I can remember that great meal I had with great people. I posted my dinner, but not my dessert, which just proves it wasn’t all to boost my online presence. Luckily, I had another friend with me who was doing the same, but for me it would have been all to easy to feel ashamed and put my phone down. If I can’t find a friend group that are going to be less judgy (because I do love those losers), I need to start ignoring them. I want to do this for future me, not for present day them.
The second, me. I’m lacking in skills and lacking in confidence. I know that I’m not amazing, and even though if I think about it logically I know that no one starts out good, it still brings me down a little. I don’t want to post something I’m not proud of, but I know I need to post things to get tips on how to improve. I need to stalk a load of people to find out how to make something fantastic, but if I stalk people on Instagram they might visit me back and see the rubbish I’m producing. I know I just need to practice, but do you see my problem? This post is partially just to chat, and partially as a promise to myself that I’m going to start working out what I need to do to start taking some photos I want to show off to the world. If you could link me to your favourite photographers, that would be very much appreciated!
So, a promise from me to you. The title of this post says I’m becoming a photographer; and whether that’s more updates on Snapchat (victoriajaynes), or more edited scenery on Instagram (victoria3739), or a collection of rubbish on my own phone, I promise to you I’m going to try. We’ll see how this goes!